Le Citron VeluThis past long weekend (it was Mothers Day on Friday, a civic holiday here) myself and four friends hopped on a privately-hired matatu for a relaxing weekend at the Hairy Lemon, a chillout/camping/swimming/ tanning/napping spot on a small island in the middle of the Nile River. It was lovely and relaxing, except for the fact that I am turning into a nervous wreck over the recent addition of Deanna Flesh to the week's menu at the Insect Cafe. In addition to the numerous flea bites, I have now been blessed by the beautifying effects of several large tsetse fly bites. They are big and red and big and painful. I look gohhhhrgeous, dahling.
Other than that, I really have a dearth of things to write about. Work has been work. Other stuff has been other stuff. I am suffering from the slow drip drip drip of friends leaving Uganda and going back home with the ends of their contracts here. By the end of July my social circle will have shrunk by about 85%. That process has already begun in earnest, so I'm already not going out nearly as much. Although, to be honest, that's partly because I don't really feel like it. Excessive drinking in the same bars week after week might just have been a habit I exhausted in Kingston somewhere mid-1999. I'm feeling much more enthusiastic about things like good books and games of Scrabble than I ever did before.
Ah heck, who am i kidding. This has got to be just a phase. I'm sure I'll get back to the unhealthy lifestyle patterns that make life fun any time now.
A lot of my knitting/cooking foods with many involved steps/reading/gym time is being spent thinking about the what the heck i'm going to do with myself post-Uganda. I have so many options, but they're all so much harder than, say, just getting my contract here get extended by another six months.
- I could go back to school. (but that wouldn't be until September of 2006, and what would I do until then? And do I want to stop earning money for two years? And what program would i do? And how much benefit would an MBA have anyway, considering the expense? and if i don't do an mba, what would i do instead? and what would look like significant improvement upon my existing education to justify taking two years out? Etc?)
- I could keep working here, for this company. (But why? And do i really want to? Sure, i'm saving more money here than i could at home, but is that enough of a reason? And are people really going to buy that i've really done this job anyway? Cause i barely believe it, frankly. So getting more experience here might not even matter?)
- I could keep working here, for other people. (But why? Would it really make a difference to my career?)
- I could go home and get a job. (But what? BUT WHAT? WHAT I ASK YOU?!)
- I could go home and try to do there what i do here. (But who will let me? and how will i get people at home to see my work experience here as legitimate? and if i can't convince people of that, what kind of job can i do where i don't end up feeling like the last couple years were a COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME?)
- I could curl up in a ball and wait for someone to pay me for that.
- I could start capitalizing words appropriately.